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Lord Rossman's avatar

Oh, i'm so sorry to hear how much you're struggling and wish i knew a way to help.

You remember, at the start of "F*ck It", that i left my well-paid job? Well i had to leave, before it took everything from me - it was killing me. Sometimes it becomes necessary to change things, if what we're doing is mentally destroying us.

Freelancing is great, you love it and you manage teams. But it's irregular and you have no life. You need a steady income & regular hours - that means a normal full-time job. Probably working FOR a venue, not at a venue. How? Use your contacts. But something clearly has to change.

Honestly, Substack hasn't worked for me either. I publish the first 2 parts of a story and waited for some reaction. Some people read it - not one has been in touch to ask for more.

People don't find things here. Most successful people are driving their subscribers here from other places. We can't do that. I don't have the answer. Sorry.

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codemonkey's avatar

Sometimes quitting can be the most fructifying thing we can do for ourselves. Make a podcast, lose weight, build a following–sometimes in all the self-improvement, we lose ourselves even more. Maybe giving yourself a little grace to just exist will remind you why you fell in love with writing in the first place.

Good luck, Michelle.

Robert Wilson's avatar

Dear Michelle, don’t quit. We all get writer’s block at times. I know it’s not easy juggling your freelance eventing with being a single mum and you’re doing a great job. At some point you will get your mojo back xx

Annika's avatar

I remember feeling like this when I was last freelance. I couldn't write from survival energy, it felt forced and unnatural. Then I got some part-time work and that's eased the financial fatigue, plus I enjoy it. And now I have capacity to write. Not suggesting you do the same, I know none of this is easy. But I also want you to know that where you are is not where you will stay. Do what you need to feel free x